This seems to baffle, confuse and even worry some people, and I guess I get it. But I am not a sad cliche that just sits around waiting for my man to come back and save me. I have a life and, although it can be lonely some times, there are so many benefits to living by yourself. The age of me living by myself will come to an end in less than a year, and I guess it's this that has made me realise how valuable the last two years of me, myself and I has been.
I am the youngest of four and my mum was a childminder from the day I was born until I was about 13/14 so I'm pretty down with sharing, well it wasn't much a choice. It's great sharing and there is really nothing that I love more than sharing a deli board with my favourites, but it's also great being able to not have to think about other people. It's nice to have someone to talk to when you get in from work but it's also really nice to sit in silence, turn on exactly what you want and eat exactly what you fancy. Living by myself, I have learnt to laugh at myself a lot more.
Being brave or drowning in your own fears
Sometimes when I'm falling asleep and I have no one to talk to my mind will race and I will convince myself that I am not going to wake up if I fall asleep. Whether it's because of an underlying heart condition, being smothered by a serial killer or just cause that's what happens sometimes, I can really be my own worst enemy. What if I fall in the shower or choke on my food? Will people find me before I'm eaten by rats? However, after many disturbed nights and waking up from nightmares with no one to comfort you, your learn to comfort yourself and what used to frighten me doesn't anymore and I sleep much better nowadays.
Yup, I completely am. Some of my favourite people, in fact the people I love the most (aside from my sister and mum) are males and I adore and admire them, but I also completely love being self-sufficient. Living by myself means that I rely on no one else. I don't need to split any bills, I don't need to have a chore chart, if something needs doing I do it because no one else will. One day, fairly soon, I will be sharing all these things and it will be awesome, but it's also really awesome to know that I was capable of doing it all alone too.